I'll Be by Edwin McCain..

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
And you're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive, and not dead

And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I`ll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And I dropped out, I burned up, I fought my way back from the dead,
I tuned in, I turned on, remembered the thing that you said.

And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

The greatest fan of your life

From Bangla to Malaysia

Dia..
Bukan orang kita..
Dia membawa cinta yng xpernah dijangka..
Dia..
Cinta tiada dua..
Antara darjat, wang , Iman dan rupa..
Dia miliki yang ketiga..dan seterusnya..
Aku bukan buta..menilai cinta tanpa mata..
Aku juga manusia..begitu juga dia..
Punya citra dan cinta yang sama..
Makhluk ciptaan yang Maha Esa..
Yang ku mohon hanya Doa..
Bukan untukku mahupun dia..
Tapi buat mata2 yang memandang hina..
Buat suara2 yang menusuk telinga..
Bukan itu yang ku pinta..
Hanya keizinan membina bahagia..
To my "Datuk"..
I will always love you come hell or high water..

VSD + PDA = IJN???

Hari ketiga Habibullah lahir, Habibullah was warded..Mama sgt sdih..Abu pn dh kna balik Shah Alam..Walhal Habibullah cuma kna joundice je..3 hari habibullah admitted at Kulim Hosp...Mama ok je kna b'pntng kt hospital tp mama sgt kesian tgk habibullah nangis tiap kali kna amik darah kt blkang tapk tgn, kna baring bwh chya lampu 24hrs pakai diaper ja..siang malam mcm tu..habibullah sejuk ka, takut ka..mama xtau..mama baru jd 'mama'...Hari2 maktok dtg bwa nasi utk mama wlopn dia sndri tgh puasa..Hari ke-3 habibullah dbnrkan balik..Dua hari lepas tu.. Habibullah admitted again..masa tu Peadiatrician dtg, ckp yg habibullah ada heart prob... might b jantung b'lubang..Bermulalah episod kasih sayang mama yg xpernah kurang..xpernah jemu..Habibullah kurang berat bdn..xboleh nk pam susu mama laju2..so..habibullah cepat penat..Habibullah lahir 3.13kg tp smpai umo 7 mths, berat habibullah cuma 4.4kg..xde otot langsung..so skinny..sgt ringan..Mama n Abu b'doa siang mlm utk kesihatan habibullah..Ramai yg ckp, mama msti frust dpt ank sulung yg b'pnyakit..but u know what..mama rsa biasa je..coz mama xpenah ada ank..mama xtahu beza ank normal or ank sakit..for mama, habibullah yg kna mkn ubat ikut time is normal...lgpun doc ckp jantung b'lubng xsakit..dh tutup lubng tu ok la nnt..Balik Shah Alam, mama n abu bwa habibullah pegi IJN..doc sahkan ada 2 lubang..PDA n VSD..kna buat surgery...kos surgery saja dianggar RM25000.00..xcampur kos wad..terkejut jugak la..mama dan abu berusaha jumpa dgn pihak IJN dan akhirnya kos dikurangkan..cuma kena bayar RM3000.00 sja..yg selebihnya ditanggung pihak IJN..Alhamdulillah..rezeki habibullah..Kos sebenar RM33000.00..

Tanggal 14 April 2009, Habibullah disuruh puasa..almost 8jam habibullah puasa, mama hntr habibullah ke O.T (Operation Teatre)..Masa Habibullah dibius, mama yang dukung habibullah..Habibullah terus lembik..mama letak habibullah atas katil..mama keluar dr O.T, sblm keluar, mama nmpak mata habibullah separuh t'buka tgh pndang mama..sayu hati mama..luluh jantung mama..berdrai air mata...Mama doa dalam hati..This is the best for you sayang..Mama, Abu n Maktok tunggu habibullah kat luar..6 jam lepas tu habibullah keluar dr O.T..First time mama tengok habibullah, Allahu Akbar!!! Mama xsanggup tengok..Habibullah belum sedar..Dada dibedah..saluran darah kt dada ditebuk..ada 2 line kt kedua-dua peha habibullah...kencing di salur m'lalui paip..kesian...hati xkeruan..paling penting Habibullah selamat..Itu yg pasti!! Syukur..

Habibullah 7 bulan..Gambar ni diambil lepas surgery..habibullah demam..Moga Habibullah sihat selalu..jadi anak yg soleh dan moga Allah permudahkan hidup habibullah di dunia dan akhirat..

Mama sayang habibullah..

A Friday Morning to Remember..

Habibullah yg mama knl is a very smart lil' boy..vry active..xpernah wlo sehari pn mama jauh dari habibullah..Habibullah lahir pd 5th Sept 2008 b'smaan 5th Ramadhan 1429, mama akn igt tht friday morning smpai bila..Sepnjng mama m'ngndungkan habibullah..mama sgt mabuk..1st Ramadhan mama puasa..your maktok larang but mama yakin mama boleh walaupun perut dh 'jatuh'..the next day mama dh xboleh puasa coz dh turun tanda..mama takut jugak tapi perasaan happy dan xsabar yg t'amat, overcame my fears...That time Abu belum balik Kulim, dia still kt rumah kita kt Shah Alam..hari ketiga Ramadhan pn mama xb'salin lg..maktok cakap kt mama "baby ni nk tunggu Abu dia datang baru dia nk keluar"..and then 4th Ramadhan, hari khamis, abu sampai tengahari.. mamalah yg paling happy..dh lupa rsa sakit walhal time tu mama dh sakit..sampai la mama dh xboleh tahan..maktok n abu bwa mama pegi hospital..mama masuk lebih kurang 12 midnight and then pukul 2.57am..habibullah lahir for the 1st time tgk dunia..tgk mama..comel..Habibullah bersin 3 or 4 kali baru habibullah nangis..Lega..sgt2 lega..happy..Abu n maktok datang..1st time Abu tengok habibullah, dia nangis..Abu cium dahi mama.."Syukur"..cium habibullah..Abu Azan kt telinga habibullah..Allahu Akbar..